Hadley saved my life . . . and I ruined hers Hadley's my best friend. We share a house, our friends, a life. She knows all my secrets . . . except one. My desperate need for her is inked on my body, it's the best I can do. But Hadley needs to hear the words . . . Growing up as foster kids, Hadley made me feel whole-sane. And what did I do? I destroyed our chance to be together. I ran out on Hadley when I should have stayed, and something broke between us. Now I'll do anything to fix it. I'll never leave her again. I won't ever let her feel afraid again. But the more I try to protect her from my pain, the more I just make things worse. I'm terrified that if I tell her everything, she'll never forgive me. I'm even more terrified that it may be too late to make her mine. I have to try to give her what she needs . . . it's a debt I'm determined to repay.
MY REVIEW:
Abandonment anyway it is served up is
still abandonment. Then you add a tragic
or an abusive event on to that and we are talking head cases for sure. We become overloaded with fear, doubt,
insecurities, hopelessness, and loneliness.
All inside our own heads all because we lose our ability to trust most
of all ourselves and others.
This is what is happening to Josh MacKay
the storyteller. You see he was left on
a bus at five years old by his mom. When
she never came back at the end of the line the bus driver had to turn him over
to the police where he ended up in foster care.
At his third home, I believe it was, he
was being sexually abused nightly by his foster father. About six weeks in a new girl also five years
old came in her name was Hadley Mitchell.
She had lost her parents in a car accident. With no other relatives they put her in
foster care while they searched for her godfather. Every night after Josh’s attack he would go
to her and lay on the floor and break into ore shattered pieces. For by her side he felt comfort.
When her godfather is found she is saved
he’s happy for her yet sad for himself.
But it was Hadley that saved him.
You see she started throwing tantrums, trying to get to Josh. Saying she has to save him. She would run away and have panic attacks
till finally Tom her godfather took her to see a doctor she could talk to which
happened to be Simon MacKay.
Once he started treating her and believed
her he and his wife Carmen started the paperwork to adopt Josh and put his
abuser in prison. He and Hadley were
reunited and remained friends. And their
hearts were truly meshing. Until they
lost their virginity together and the world came crashing down around them.
You will love this story with all its
harshness, true life, dysfunction, love, hope, laughter, joy, fear, pain, lots
of tears, but most of all happiness.
This author very eloquently takes you on an emotional journey of healing
for Josh and Hadley.
I have to say I had to step away at times
for it was emotionally draining at times but so worth the read. You will for sure need tissues because when the
tears hit they will hit hard and it will be a messy cry. Not a lot of books get me there so this
author is amazing in her style of writing and her choice of making it come from
Josh’s eyes, WOW!
I give this book gladly 5++++ stars. Provided by netgalley.com. Follow us at: www.1rad-readerreviews.com.
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